I haven’t written anything of substance in a while. It’s been a very busy month. I gave a presentation two weeks ago in front of people, something I haven’t done since college. There was a lot of preparation leading up to that moment and I found out last week, I’ll be doing it again sometime this summer. I’ve been asking God for the past year to get me out of my comfort zone, He’s definitely answered my prayer in this area. Looking forward to more opportunities to grow and learn.

All that aside, I decided to do something a little different with this space of mine and recap my week. I’m trying to get back into the habit of blogging again. I write everyday, but I haven’t really posted in a while. I’ve been trying to stay off screens and get out more. Every Sunday for the past two months, I’ve taken a social media Sabbath. I don’t login to social media at all. It’s been a refreshing break and it’s been a good way to reset before starting a new work week.

Not going to lie, this week has been terrible. It seems every year around this time, things start falling apart and blowing itself out of proportion. Mostly in my interpersonal relationships. One relationship has remained constant though and for that I’m thankful. Without this person’s friendship, I’d probably be buried somewhere. Whatever I’m going through, whatever I’m feeling or however I’m being, they’re always there.  Thank you, you know who you are.

There were a few highlights though over the past week, here’s a recap:

Song of the Week: Great Wide Open by Thirty Seconds to Mars

I’ve followed Thirty Seconds to Mars for about 16 years. Hard to believe they’ve been around this long, but I’ve been a long time fan.  They recently released their newest album, AMERICA. it’s not like their others. Most of the songs on the album are good, but Great Wide Open hits close to home for me.

Is this life?
That we’re living
Say the prayers of a thousand tongues
Is this love?
Some new beginning
Or a night in our wildest dreams
Into the great wide open
Across a land of blood and dreams
I will save your heart from breaking
Won’t you stop, please
Set me free
I swear to god
I’m the devil
Raise your hands to the sky and praise
I’m a thief
You’re a liar
But we live in our wildest dreams
Movie of the Week: A Quiet Place
I’m a big horror movie fan and A Quiet Place was a very different movie for the horror movie genre. Mostly because of how little dialogue happens in it which is what makes it truly brilliant. I went into it with mixed feelings, but it didn’t disappoint. I cried. It currently has a 95% score on Rotten Tomatoes and I would agree its score is accurate.
 Your father will protect you. Your father will always protect you.
 Scripture of the Week: Lamentations 2
 
Lamentations 2 has been a pretty significant scripture for me over the past year. Specifically, verse 13. Verse 13 reads, “Your wound is as deep as the sea. Who can heal you?” I saw this scripture a lot in October-November 2017. For some reason God kept circling me back to this scripture repeatedly. It was actually annoying because I didn’t understand why. I kept asking God to reveal it, I reached out to biblical minded friends for their input, but nothing. Eventually God left it alone. But then in December 2017, I had a dream about this scripture before God lead me there on my own a few days later. In the dream someone from my past actually said, “Your wounds are deep Julie, let God heal you.” Needless to say, it freaked me the hell out. I haven’t seen it since then, but this week, I was lead to this scripture twice.
 
Why is this scripture significant? 
From experience, I can tell you any wounds from our past that aren’t confronted or dealt with can spread like wildfire and those closest to us will get burned.
I’m in the fire now because someone in my life hasn’t dealt with their past pain. For what it’s worth, I’ve been there and know what it feels like to have those closest to you, people you love hurt and disappoint you. However, I choose everyday not to remain stuck in past hurts. Nothing from our past can hurt our present unless we allow it.
Pay attention to what’s going on inside you and resolve those wounds from your past because things not confronted will project themselves onto other people.
Some of the greatest lessons of my life came from my deepest wounds and hurts. 
 He’s healing mine, let Him heal yours.
Until next week.
In Jesus and with love,
Julie