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Song of the Week

 

This week’s song is “You Found Me” by The Fray.  This song has been played a lot in the past few weeks. I have forgotten how much I enjoy it, let alone needed the reminder.   Every time I hear this song I have been in a different part of my life but it always speaks to me in the same way.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came

Earlier, I was going through an old blog and came across an entry from 2005. I was in a transitional stage. I was 22 and there was a lot of uncertainty and disappointment in my life. I was trying to find myself and was inevitably falling apart.  I waited for a sign and nothing. I waited for a miracle that never came. Little did I know God was working seven years ago the way He’s working right now.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin’ on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

As lost as I was it took a lot of silence, growing, and learning to get where I am now. There were times in the last seven years when I found myself asking, “Where are You God?” “Don’t You hear me screaming?” “Why aren’t You answering me?” Though I didn’t know it then, I know that He was always there.

Early morning
The city breaks
I’ve been callin’
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all I want

God knows what He is doing and while we may not always know, we can find satisfaction knowing that we have a relationship with the One who does. When God was [is] silent He was [is] developing the fruit of patience in me. I have learned to be patient through every trial and that is how I grow the most spiritually.

Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why’d you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

God is never late and never delays.  He found me just in time.

He was waiting for me.


Song of the Week

 

This week’s song is “Shake It Out” by Florence + The Machine. I first heard this song a couple of months ago and there has always been one line in the song that struck a cord in me. “And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back, so shake him off.” However, the song resonated with me differently this week.

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way

The war between flesh and faith is a constant fight. The enemy’s strength has been on my shoulders for the past two weeks and “I can see no way.”  I have never regretted anything in my life, but this week a lot of resentment and memories from my past collected at the surface. It was a clear to me that as much as I want to let go, there are still parts of my past that I am carrying with me and I’m reliving every darkest moment.

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

A lot of what is going on in my heart and mind, I keep to myself.  Satan wants me to falter, he wants me to cave, but I will not falter or cave. While my issues are here reminding me of where I lack, dawn is coming and these feelings are temporary.

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off

It’s a fine romance between flesh and faith, and most of the time, the flesh wins. It’s hard being “strong all the time” with the weight of my past on my back, but I wouldn’t change it. I carry those burdens on my back freely, because I know there is a strength inside me to fight against them. Layer by layer, the weight of my past will shake off and I will be set free.

And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me

I’m ready to suffer the way Christ suffered so I can live. Oddly enough, I feel safe in my suffering, because I know hope is waiting.  My hope is eternal rest in Heaven.  The dance between flesh and faith will continue dancing, but there is hope because it’s always “darkest before the dawn.”

I’m ready to hope.

 

Lifeline



Everyday is a fight to live and to stay alive and I’m fighting to live and feel alive. It’s me against the world and most of the time the world wins.  The world is harsh and the enemy is always in it attempting to destroy the only thing inside  I have left.  It are in those moments that I realize I need God most.

I need my lifeline.

Everyday it feels like I am drowning in the high tides of this darkened world and the only thing I need is for someone to reach out their hand and say “I’m here for you.” 

I need a lifeline.

God is stirring up something inside me right now and He is searching for my fight.  He is looking for my will inside to keep fighting; to stay alive.

There is a lot in this world that doesn’t make sense to me and sometimes I want the answers to just fall through the sky. Sometimes I want God to come down from Heaven and tell me exactly what I need to do. If only He would, it would save me.   He would save me from myself.

Every beat of my heart is God reminding me that I’m alive and to keep fighting.  No matter how hard it hurts and  how deep the trial, He reminds me to keep fighting.  Every part of my life is in His control.

God is my lifeline.

Hebrews 11:1

 1-2The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living

For the past year I have been blogging elsewhere. Xanga was good for me for about seven years and then my life took a completely different direction and my focus has shifted. Most of the entries you will find here are experiences in my life that made me who I am today and entries that reflected moments in my life when I was at my lowest. If you would like to follow my journey, my life, and my pursuit of everything spiritual and personal, please go to the following links:

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A Pinch of Salt

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Matthew 5:13

13 “You are the salt of the earth.14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.

As Christians, it is very easy for us to fellowship and connect with like minded believers.  God’s light in our life should shine for everyone, not just for the people who believe.  There are plenty of people in this life that need hope for their future and know that someone cares.  Christians are the minority; People that need a “pinch of salt” in their life are the majority.

It is easy to to only try and connect with people who are like-minded in spirit and in nature, but everyone are all the same.  We all bleed red.  If we are only sharing the good news of God to only the people in our life that we connect with often, then we aren’t doing God’s will.  If we can’t have an honest relationship or connection with Non-believers, pray for them, and share God’s work in our life, then we are not living out our purpose.

16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.

We can’t save everyone, but we aren’t supposed to. However, we can spread the message of God’s Word and how having a relationship with Him has changed our life.  Most importantly,  everyone needs to understand that by having a relationship with God can inevitably change their life.

Most people are resistant to change and don’t want to hear the truth.  It is our responsibility as Christians to help others, share the love God has poured into our life, and pray for others.  This means everyone.  If we are only praying for other Christians, then we are not the salt or the light. We have a responsibility to show others that they need God in their life. A salt with no flavor cannot be used.

More often than not, and sometimes unintentionally we are ashamed or embarrassed to talk about God to Non-Believers. It is this behavior and fear that prevents us from sharing God and saving others.  How we can we truly have an honest relationship with God if we are ashamed to talk about Him?

God wants us to continue living for Him so that people can witness His love in our life.  God wants to use us to reach the world. When people see that we care enough to do the things they wouldn’t do, they will be more likely to ask why we are different and this can open the door for us to share that we are following God’s example.

Just as the Moon only reflects the light of the Sun and has no power of its own, all the light we can offer here on Earth is just a reflection of God’s eternal light. It’s not ours to hoard,  but it is ours to share.  –  Sarah Bryan Miller

When Our Worlds Fall Apart

Lamentations 1:20

20 “See, LORD, how distressed I am!
I am in torment within,
and in my heart I am disturbed,
for I have been most rebellious.
Outside, the sword bereaves;
inside, there is only death.

Something happens in our life that steals our light, we lose hope, and the strength to keep pressing forward fails us. We are distressed, tormented, our hearts ache and we are deeply saddened by something that has happened in our life. We are at our ropes end and we ask ourselves, “Why Me?” This world is broken and so are we. Not everything in life is perfect. Relationships and marriages fail, friendships end, people die everyday around us, and people are suffering all around the world. Some closer than we think.   One of the challenges of living in a broken world is that the rug can be pulled out from under us in a second and our worlds can inevitably fall apart around us within a moments notice. The good news is there is comfort in God’s healing.  As the book of Lamentations opens, we can learn to rebuild our lives by studying Jeremiah’s cries to God.

In Lamentations 3:1-10, Jeremiah suffered through the exile of his nation.  

 I am the man who has seen affliction
by the rod of the LORD’s wrath.
2 He has driven me away and made me walk
in darkness rather than light;
3 indeed, he has turned his hand against me
again and again, all day long.

4 He has made my skin and my flesh grow old
and has broken my bones.
5 He has besieged me and surrounded me
with bitterness and hardship.
6 He has made me dwell in darkness
like those long dead.

7 He has walled me in so I cannot escape;
he has weighed me down with chains.
8 Even when I call out or cry for help,
he shuts out my prayer.
9 He has barred my way with blocks of stone;
he has made my paths crooked.

10 Like a bear lying in wait,
like a lion in hiding,

In the above verses Jeremiah uses the terms affliction, darkness, crooked, broken, and bitterness to describe his experiences. There have been times in our life where we can relate to Jeremiah and his pain. We’ve been afflicted, broken, bitter, and our paths have been crooked by our experiences and the challenges we face in our daily life.  

It is unhealthy to keep our feelings and frustrations bottled inside. We must UNLOAD ALL OF OUR FRUSTRATIONS ON GOD. God is waiting for us to unload on Him and to TRUST Him. Our emotional and mental selves need to allow God inside our hearts and we need to learn to communicate our feelings to Him. When we keep our feelings and frustrations bottled  inside, it increases the hurt and pain we feel and allows our hearts to remain troubled. If we do not learn to unload all of our frustrations on God, our spirits will remain depressed when we constantly live inside our pain.

Second, we must TURN OUR FOCUS FROM PAIN TO GOD’s LOVE

Lamentations 3:19-26

 19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,

the bitterness and the gall.
20 I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

22 Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,

for his compassions never fail.

23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”

25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,

to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.

In the above verses, Jeremiah’s hope in God returns. He begins to focus on what is left and not what is lost. This is significant for us if we truly want to learn the power of letting go and focus on the present. We must learn to focus on the things we have, not the things that are no longer in our life. If we continue living in the past and not allowing ourselves to move forward and focus on the present, we will remain stuck and we’ll never truly heal. The benefits of remembering God’s unfailing love and mercy is to understand that regardless of whatever happens in our life, God isalways there. God’s love and compassion never fails us. If we place our faith and hope solely in Him, and SEEK Him, we will find the strength to rebuild our lives and be stronger than ever before.

Lamentations 3:31-33

 31 For no one is cast off
by the Lord forever.
32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
so great is his unfailing love.
33 For he does not willingly bring affliction
or grief to anyone.

God’s love for us is sure and strong. No one in this life is cast off by God forever and though there are times in life when He brings us grief, we will always have His love and compassion. God never willingly brings affliction or grief to any one and while it hurts now, it won’t last forever. When we magnify all that God has done and continues to do for us, we will remember His love through our creation, His redemption, and eternal life in Heaven. We can acknowledge God’s presence in our friendships, relationships, marriages, and other life situations by living in His image, embracing others in their pain and being there for others who are suffering like we are, and  reevaluating our life an the things we need to change to be better believers and followers of Christ.

Lamentations 3:28-29

28 Let him sit alone in silence,
for the LORD has laid it on him.
29 Let him bury his face in the dust—
there may yet be hope.

When life seems too heavy and hard to bear, we must sit alone in silence with God. We must GET ALONE WITH GOD AND WAIT!  We can wait for God by going into a quiet and secluded place and PRAY.

Matthew 6:6

 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

The advantages of sitting in seclusion and silence with God in prayer can allow us to bear it all and relieve us from our pain. When we speak in silence with God in prayer our focus shifts from ourselves to God and we begin to sense His grace.  It is difficult to wait on God when we want our prayers answered now, but it’s imperative that we wait.

Lamentations 3:25-26

25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.

God isn’t on our schedule. God’s timing is never early and it’s never late. It is important for us to have experience with God and to learn from other’s experiences who know God. Through others we can help build each other up in our pain. We are not in this world alone and we should not have to rely on ourselves to get us through life and acknowledge our need of God only in times of crisis.The key to crisis control is Christ-Control

Lamentations 3:40

40 Let us examine our ways and test them,
and let us return to the LORD.

Self-evaluation is hard when we feel we aren’t at fault for the things that have gone wrong in our life. It is easier to blame others for the hardships we face in life than to turn our attention towards ourselves and focus on the things we need to change. There are things in this life we cannot change, but we can CHANGE THE THINGS WE CAN.  Living in denial and refusing to change the things we can (the things we can control) can prevent us from turning to God to change the picture we have painted of ourselves. We need to face the fact that we are imperfect and there is a reason we remain in the situations we do. Being faithful is to face the facts about ourselves and our situations without being discouraged. Obviously there is a reason why things in our life happen, the question is, how do we deal with it? What areas in our life do we need to change so we can be better and stronger?

Do we live the way God wants us to? If not, we need to sit down with ourselves and make a list of the things we should keep doing, the things we should stop doing, and the things we need to do differently. We need to apply this to our life everyday so we can feel God move in our life and what He will do when we put forth the effort to live in His image.

Being at peace in this life requires that we accept the things in life that we cannot change and trusting God will be faithful to keep His promises. We must get alone with Him, be still, and wait in patience to hear from Him.

Lamentations 3:53-57

53 They tried to end my life in a pit
and threw stones at me;
54 the waters closed over my head,
and I thought I was about to perish.

55 I called on your name, LORD,
from the depths of the pit.
56 You heard my plea: “Do not close your ears
to my cry for relief.”
57 You came near when I called you,
and you said, “Do not fear.”

When we are in the dark pit of life that we can’t seem to get ourselves out of, we must call upon God. When our worlds fall apart, we feel empty and the sorrow in our hearts deepens. When we are in the depths of the pit, we mustASK GOD TO RELIEVE OUR FEARS.  We should never fear the power of God’s love and how His love can heal. Through the TRUTH of His Word, His LOVE, and our FAITH, we can learn to replace our fears and rebuild our lives.

Lamentations 5:21

21 Restore us to yourself, LORD, that we may return;
renew our days as of old

In Lamentations 5:21, Jeremiah asks God for restoration. When we are hurting, we must EXPECT GOD TO RESTORE OUR LIFE.  As we reflect on our life and the areas that we need to change, it is important to know that we are not alone. We must hand our pains, stresses, and challenges over to God and allow HIM to do the work He is willing and ready to do. God is willing to work His miracles in our life if we allow Him to. We have to stop resisting and allow Him to help.

We must pray to Him and ask Him to be the strength in our life. Ask him to help us slow down and take the time to focus on Him and make Him a priority this week and for the rest of our life. To help us start rebuilding our life around His TRUTH, His LOVE, and our FAITH so we can be released from our fears and worries that we struggle daily with. We must believe that He can and wants to help us make it through the hard times we experience.  Ask God to help us focus on what is left in our life, not what is lost. Most importantly, to help us remember that God is control, that He loves us, and He is all we need.

At the end of your rope
Hanging by a thread
He’d give anything for this to just go away
This grip is only so strong

I try to hold on tightly
But it’s all slipping through my fingers
In a fleeting moment
Aspirations bled dry
Eyes that once beamed with hope now only stare in remorse

Even through this pain
I will feel again
Even through these tears
I will love again

When Satan Steals Our Light

 



1 Peter 5:8-9

8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings

We’ve all been there. Things in our life are going great, we’re happy, everything seems to be falling into place, the light of God shines brightly and then out of no where, Satan floods our thoughts and we’re back to the place of darkness that we all know well. It seems like a never ending cycle, a cycle that continues to repeat itself every time we’re finally at a place of peace. Satan is waiting .. he is waiting for us to break and crumble at his feet. He is waiting in the shadows for the opportunity to steal our light and destroy our spirit. We begin to have an increasing amount of doubt about the direction we’re going, what we’re doing, and whether or not we’re ever going to be completely happy in life. Our moments of happiness are fleeting and we wonder if we’re ever going to experience true happiness or what true happiness entails. We walk around with a smile on our face only to feel torment and despair on the inside. It’s a constant battle; a war within ourselves to be free from Satan’s wrath.

Psalm 88:6-9

6 You have put me in the lowest pit,
in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily on me;
you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.[a]
8 You have taken from me my closest friends
and have made me repulsive to them.
I am confined and cannot escape;
9 my eyes are dim with grief.

I call to you, LORD, every day;
I spread out my hands to you.

With God at our side, Satan will never defeat us.  Satan wants us to sit in darkness and despair. He wants us to have feelings of resentment, bitterness, and wants us to believe things that aren’t true. Our minds are our worst enemy because every moment we have time to think is another moment when Satan uses that opportunity to consume our thoughts with negativity. We can choose to listen or we can learn to tune him out and call on God instead.

Blind in this place of darkness, if I fall would you be there to raise me up?

When we’re blinded  in Satan’s darkness, God is there to raise us up. When we face feelings of despair, God is waiting to shine His light and love in our life. God is the light in our darkened world.  When Satan steals our light, God is right behind Him shining his light brighter. We have to stay strong and remain steadfast in our faith.  As long as we are firm in our faith and believe God’s Word, we will be saved from Satan and his wrath.
Ephesians 6:10-11

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.

 

Our True Colors Shine Through

 

You know how you can find out someone’s true colors? When you need them the most and they aren’t no where to be found. When someone has the capacity to walk away from you without hesitation, that’s how you know their true colors and what kind of person they truly are. It’s a hard truth to swallow, but that is why our relationship with God is important.

It’s simple, really. Our character and how we treat people should be a true reflection of God.  Admittedly, it’s not easy. Sometimes people are more intolerable than others and don’t make it easy to always be there. Truth is, we’re all flawed. We’re human. We’re emotional beings and invest too much time in others when we should be investing our time to God. Why do we invest so much time in others and not on God? We all want to be loved and appreciated for who we are, but truthfully, if we expect those things from others, we will be severely disappointed. It shouldn’t be that way, but that’s the reality.  Not everyone will disappoint you and not everyone will walk away. Those who choose to walk, walk for their own reasons and has no bearing of who we are in the eyes of God. God created us all in His image. It is in that image alone that should enable us and encourage us to lift others up when they have lost hope in life and in themselves. We should encourage others to stay strong when life takes its toll and runs its course.

God knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows our heart, he sees to our soul. He knows what kind of person we really are. We’re broken. Scarred. Scared. Searching. Lost. Hopeless. Hopeful. Happy. We’re all something. Most importantly, we are the creation of God. How we live and how we treat others has a tremendous impact on the kind of life we live and lead. No one in this life deserves to be treated poorly or unfairly. Everyone deserves a chance. When you give up on someone, you ultimately give up on yourself and on your faith. God commanded us to love and sharpen each other. We cannot continue the patterns in our life that involve turning our backs on the people that need us the most. That is not what God wanted.

Proverbs 27:17

As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.

Philippians 2

1 Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. 3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, 4 not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.

5 In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

We are the lights in the world. Our image and our colors should be representative of God and the life He lived.  Through our relationship with God we are able to recognize our strengths, understand our weaknesses, and ultimately understand who we are. If we are someone that has the tendency to give up on others, we need to ask ourselves why. We need to seek direction from God and make changes in ourselves that mirror His image. This is extremely imperative so we will be better and stronger in our faith and in our relationships we form with others.

Sometimes we are blind and don’t recognize someone’s true colors right away, we have the tendency to give people the benefit of a doubt. Ultimately, if someone genuinely cares about us and our well being, they will never find a reason to walk. They will only find reasons to encourage, up lift, and help in any way they can … the way God does for us consistently. It is that unconditional support that truly lacks in us. It’s unfortunate, but it doesn’t have to be. We need to understand our place and take a long hard look in the mirror to the person we are right now. If we are unsatisfied and unhappy with the way we are, we need to fix it. We need to be better people who embrace others in their pain. We need to be the person that God intended for us to be.

You with the sad eyes
Don’t be discouraged
Oh I realize
It’s hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that’s why I love you

God sees our true colors and He loves us regardless. Be the colors of the rainbow that shines through someone’s life and love with all you have.  Life is too short to do anything but the things God commanded us to do.

Break the cycle. Be the change.

It’s so easy for people to tell you the things you need to do in order to have a stronger relationship with God. Go to Church. Find a group of “strong” Christian believers and turn to them when you’re in distress or need comfort. Because when you feel like God isn’t listening or is ignoring your pleas, where should you turn? It’s easy for people to tell you that if you don’t have a strong network of Christian believers in your immediate circle that you will forever wander around this Earth lost and hopeless. How ironic is it that the people who are quick to tell you the things you need to do, the things you need to change, are the same people who aren’t willing to help you. Instead they give you a few sentences of advice and go on their way. They aren’t willing to pick you up when you’re down. They aren’t willing to spare a few seconds out of their busy schedules to help. There is always some excuse.

Time.  This is something we don’t have a lot of or claim not to have a lot of, but the truth is we don’t want to take the time to help other people. It only takes a second to ask “How are you?” and “I’m here for you.” Do you think saying you’ll pray for someone is enough? It’s not. There are people who are hurting in ways that you cannot possibly imagine. Hurting in ways far more than just someone having a “bad day.” It’s deeper than that, much deeper.

We’re fragile humans roaming this Earth who are only looking for a sign of hope. We are looking for our light. When we cry out to God and ask him to relieve us of all our worries, stresses, hurts, pains, anguish, bitterness, it almost seems like we’re only speaking to ourselves in silence. Hoping that He hears us and will deliver us from our pain and sorrow. The truth is, it takes more than God to heal us. It takes unconditional love and support that people are unwilling to reciprocate because they are broken and fragile too. It’s a bitter cycle, but a cycle all of us know well. So how do we break the cycle? We cannot do it alone. We are not in this world alone. We need each other and we need each other now more than ever.

We need to know we are not alone and that there are people out there who care. We need to know that despite whatever is going on in someone else’s life that we are worth that second or minute. There is no excuse as to why someone cannot be there for another Christian or someone who is failing in their Faith. We are all in this world together and there is no reason we should ever stand or feel alone. Part of healing and growing in Christ together is what God wanted for us all. He wanted us to be in fellowship with one another and lift each other up when we feel weak. When we are lost we are supposed to turn to each other for support. So why are we the first to turn our backs? Fear. It is that fear alone that prohibits us from truly making a difference in another person’s life. But that fear should not define us.

We need to wake up.

We need to open our eyes to the world around us and be the change. We are the hope for the future. We are the ones that should stand united and pick each other up when we fall or feel weak and immobile. The life we live is only temporary to the life we will all live in Heaven. The time we spend here should be spent making a difference in other people’s lives and being the support and comfort others need when they are hurting or distressed. Because irregardless of what is going on in our lives, there is no excuse that should prevent us from being there for other people!

Hectic work schedule? Excuse. Too tired? Excuse. Depressed? Excuse. No time? Excuse. Those excuses become walls that we build around ourselves and the people in our lives who depend on and need us. If God stood in front of you and asked you why you have denied Him and his children, your brothers in sisters in Christ, what would be your response? You were too tired? Too burned out on life? The life we live and the lives we touch will have an everlasting impact on the life we live in Heaven and when we’re confronted by God on our final day.

We must break the cycle and be the change. This life is only temporary and the more we make excuses the more those excuses will become truths.There is only one truth and that is God. Do not deny others your time, love and support. There are people out there that need you. Be the change.  It’s what God wants.

Be the change today.

James 2:14-17

4 What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? 15 Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. 16 If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? 17 In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

The Forgotten One

At one point in time in our life we have often felt that God has forgotten about us. We have been so broken, so lost, searching … searching for the strength to press forward .. reaching … only to be disappointed when there isn’t a hand there to reach or hold on to.  God is the stronghold of our life, He is there to lift us up when we are weak and feeling down. So why does God feel so distant? God never puts anything in our lives He knows we can’t handle .. but why does it feel like God isn’t there any more?

Lost in a sea of sadness
Blind in this place of darkness
If I fall would you be there to raise me up?
Or will I be the forgotten one?

God has a way of showing up in our lives when we least expect Him to … he also shows up when we ask. There are times when we actually call to Him and yet He still feels so distant. Too far from our reach and we search endlessly for the will to press forward, pray often, and hope that God will show up again to give us the strength to press forward to a new day. To believe and trust Him that whatever is going on in our lives right now is only temporary. The hurt, the bitterness, the longingeverything … everything we’re going through is only temporary. When we are “lost in the sea of sadness”, where do we find the strength to seek God? And when we do seek Him, how do we believe that when all hope is lost that the pain will eventually subside and He will raise us up again?

Lead me to the crossroad, I can find my way home
Devils on my back and angels in between
The scars and dreams that made me believe
Wheres the crime scene in remembrance to me
When our eyes meet do you know the man beneath?
Walk the line between desperate and redeemed

Where does our strength come from? 

FAITH

We must be willing to accept God as our Savior and trust that He has not forgotten us. God has never for a moment turned His back on us. He knows what we’re going through, he understands what we’re going through and when no one else does or tries, He does willingly.  It is through our Faith in Him that gives us the hope we need to believe that He has not forgotten us.Because when no one else is, God is always thinking about us.  We must understand that God allows things in our life to happen to create a greater dependence on Him. When we are at a crossroad in our life or something unexpected happens, He wants us to turn to Him, not turn away. It is in that moment when our Faith is tested.

Never will I leave you;  never will I forsake you.”

Psalm 142

I cry aloud to the LORD;
I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.
2 I pour out before him my complaint;
before him I tell my trouble.

Psalm 142:4-5

Look and see, there is no one at my right hand;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.

5 I cry to you, LORD;
I say, “You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.”

Being forgotten by others is normal, but being forgotten by God is a rarity.  Take refuge in the Lord and continue to pray.  Have Faith in the Lord because when all else fails in our lives, He will never will.

An open prayer

God, I know you can hear me and I know you’re here with me. Right now I need your love, comfort, and support. It seems right now in my life there are far more uncertainties than there are reassurances and right now I need to be reassured. I have lost a lot in my life and in the times where I thought I had it all, I was heavily disappointed when I realized in the end that I had nothing as long as I didn’t rely solely on YOU to get me through. I am at a crossroads right now in my life. Everything has essentially fallen apart around me. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.  Everyone is depending on me, people need me, and I feel like I am the one holding everyone together, while I am the one falling apart inside.  It’s so easy for people to walk away from me without hesitation and complete disregard for the situation or my feelings. I have been verbally and emotionally attacked in the past month and I am at a complete loss.

There is so much anger and bitterness stored inside my heart and my soul is the only thing that lives inside me that tries to keep my heart in line and stay strong. I don’t have it in me any more God. I don’t have that drive inside me to be “okay.” My flame has burned out and I am tired God. I put on this facade that I am fine and I pretend I am strong, but I’m not. I need you now more than ever and I feel like you’re punishing me for my behavior and for my actions towards others. I know in my heart that isn’t true, but I know you’re testing me and my life right now and for what purpose or reason, I don’t know .. but for whatever reason, deep down I understand it.

I am hurting in the worst way possible right now and it seems like irregardless of the times I reach out, I fall short. No one understands me like You do. You’re my Creator and the person that guides the steps of my life. Even when the times in my life where I felt unbalanced, you were there for me to hold my hand and keep me from falling. I feel at this moment in my life I am falling.  Falling slowly into the unknown and it scares me.

I have never been scared of anything in my life, so afraid that I didn’t know which way was up and what was going to happen. Right now I am scared. I am scared that I am going to ultimately fail You and continue letting down the people around me or who choose to surround themselves around me. I have become someone I don’t know any more. I live my day by day and never expect anything. I live my life with no expectations because I know I will ultimately end up disappointed. Looking back, the only disappointment has been myself.

I need love, comfort, and support. That is what I need and I know you’re the only person that can truly provide that to me in a genuine way. You are the only person in my life right now that genuinely cares about me and my well being without any expectation. You hold my feelings in high regard and are the only person that is going to get me through. I have never needed you as much as I need you right now in my life. I know I only come to you when things are going wrong. I think I have chosen to ignore everything, put other people’s happiness before my own and had refused to focus my attention on You and the love You continue to provide me throughout my life even when there is nothing but darkness that surrounds me.

I know I have failed you, I have failed myself. But, I am turning to You and entrusting my life in Your hands. I am not perfect and I have my faults. Those faults are what drives the people I care about most out of my life. But those same faults are the faults you have chosen to forgive me for. You are the only person who will ultimately save me and right now I need to be saved.  Please guide my life and my steps. Please comfort me in my time of need, support me when I am troubled, and love me when no one else will. Please give me the strength to get through my days and focus on the things that are important. Please look after me and take care of me.  I am lost God and right now I need to be saved.  Please save me.

Amen.

God is our light

What do we do when we feel like the light in our lives is essentially gone? Where do we turn? Where do we find the strength to keep moving when we feel like everyone is against us and we feel abandoned? The answer is simple, we should turn to God. But why is that hard? We know in our hearts that God will never put anything in our paths or in our lives He knows we can’t get through or handle, but what do we do when we have no will inside left to fight and we want to give up? We can sit and ask ourselves “Why me God?” “Why are you allowing this to happen?” God places the experiences we face in our lives for a reason and only God knows that reason.

Finding the motivation in life to move on and be happy with our life is hard when we are surrounded by people who are supposed to love and protect us, instead threatens and destroys our spirit and our light. So what do we do? We wait. We must be patient with God and trust that He his reasons may not make sense to us in the moment, that in the long-run we will understand and find the strength to find our light again. Even through our trials and our hardships, God never leaves our side.

When the support we once had is no longer there and the people in our life that was once our light are gone, we must remember that God is our light and will never turn His back on us and abandon us. It is easier to throw up our hands and walk away than it is to stay through our situations through thick and thin and tough them out. We are not programmed to be patient and work through our problems.  But, God is here for us. No matter what we face in this life, God is there and that light shines just as brightly as it did before.

God is our light and our salvation and with Him in our life, there is no darkness.

Psalm 27

Of David.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour[a] me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.

4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.

13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.