When insecurity rears its ugly head, everything good in my life is placed under a microscope. I look for flaws when there aren’t any and my immediate response is to look for the closest exit. Whether it’s relationships with other people or just life in general, my go to response is to push away the good things in my life. I’ve been this way for most of my life. For a while it got better but lately, it’s decided to resurface.
I’ve been having issues lately with not believing I deserve good things. Confident people don’t have this issue, but I do and lately it’s been daily.
The past two months have been a whirlwind. When one door closed, another opened. Though I did what was best for my life and heart, there are times when feel a sense of regret. Maybe if I was more patient, gave the benefit of a doubt more, loved better, or thought more with my head than heart, things would be different. But the truth is, confident people don’t live with regrets. They accept their decisions for what they are and move on with their life.
Good things in our life that are often shadowed by our fears, insecurities, and doubts. I don’t know what yours are, but I know mine. When I feel like I don’t deserve good things, I look at my life and see the people and things He has placed in my care. Suddenly, those fears, insecurities, and doubts are just noise.
Most of the time, the lies we choose to believe about ourselves ruins opportunities to give good things a chance to birth and grow. It amazes me the lies I’ve chosen to believe because of insecurity and fear. But the most important thing I can tell you is there are people who will support you in your weaknesses, if you let them. They will do their best to understand you before they resolve to abandon you.
These are the good things we miss when we’re too focused on our fears, insecurities, and doubts. God orchestrates everything in our life to help us see how good He really is. Even when we don’t feel good, He still is. He will bring people along in our life to help us see this. When He does, don’t take them for granted.
What good thing has God done for you lately? Have you had difficulty lately accepting it?