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“So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts to follow their own devices.” – Psalm 81:12

On a scale of 1-10, how stubborn are you? I’m somewhere between a 5 and 6.

2015 was spent doing things my own way without God’s direction. I built relationships with other people thinking it was His will and though I saw Him move in those brief moments, the foundation wasn’t there.  I decided I was tired of disappointment so I continued on my own path until a moment of crisis halted my plans and He intervened.

I remember several times throughout the year when I was angry with God and how my life wasn’t going. I was mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually tired. I did things my own way for about a year until I got a reality check. I realize now how stubborn I was.

Sometimes God allows us to continue in our disobedience and run our own race. God could have intervened any time in those moments even before my moment of crisis, but He allowed my plans to fall apart to bring me to repentance. This was His plan all along.

I don’t like to admit how stubborn I really am. Any woman who wants to follow the Lord in all her ways doesn’t like to admit failure. I’ve failed plenty. It’s a moment by moment decision in my everyday life to either follow the Lord or continue in my stubbornness and do life my way. I already know the end result so there’s no point in going down that road any more.

God wants to turn our stubbornness into steadfastness. 

Today, will you let Him?

#heartcheck

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