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” Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.” – Luke 9:62

Back in February I wrote a post about How Looking Back Helps Us Heal and I still believe those words two months later. However, the way God has gotten my attention lately, I can’t ignore His reminder any more.

Yes, looking back helps us heal. We have to confront those hurtful places of our past to see how far we’ve come and how God brought us through it. But we can’t live or remain there, we have to keep moving forward. 

I’m amazed at how much of my life has changed in only a couple of weeks. I’m reminded today how very little I understand God and His ways. I will probably always be naive to His will because I’m not Him.

This morning’s reading is a reminder to me I can’t continue living in the wounds of my past. It hurts, a lot of will always hurt but I can’t use it as an excuse any more. I need to move forward in whatever God asks and wants from me.

If I’m honest, I feel stuck. There’s a will inside me to go on this adventure God is calling me to and yet, another part of me wants to remain still. My hands are ready, but my heart’s not and I’m torn.

This is probably the most vulnerable thing I’m putting out there.  I’ve never been this way before. Whenever God moved, I stood ready. There was very little hesitation only obedience. Yet, today all I can think about is how my past has significantly defined my present inactivity.

God needs me ready now and this means laying down the hurt from my past and moving forward in His will.

Lord, please guide me.

Is your past keeping you from moving forward in God’s will?

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